It amazes me that Love is really all there is. KD’s singing of this old song feels like a heavenly focus, imploring God to teach him what love is. Not a mental exercise, but an embodied, spiritual longing to be united with the divine. It moves me to tears. It inspires me. And it reminds me of how important Love is.
Years ago, when I was in Acupuncture school one of my classmates started dating a man who was terminally ill with cancer. They had less than a year together before he died. I remember asking her one day how she was doing and she said, “I am in love with a man who is dying of cancer, every day is precious. We don’t have time to fight about the little things.”
Her words sunk in deeply. None of us really have time to fight about the little things. Yet, we fill our days with the little things. By little, I mean things that won’t matter when we are gone. Money. Material possessions. Status. How we look.
Listening to KD’s song brings me to the place where I don’t want to waste another second on anything that isn’t about love. The word love may be over used, used for manipulation, used to sell stuff. But the concept of love is underused. Many religions even say, God is love. I find that really amazing. What that means to me is the love union between people whether it is with a lover, or a friend, or a child, or a patient, or a co-worker or an animal is the place where the Divine resides. It is that reason that we (human beings) spend so much of our lives running towards love or avoiding love. We are afraid of love as much as we crave it in every cell of our bodies. We are designed to need love, because in my opinion that is when we really experience God.
We’ve all been hurt by love. Had our hearts broken, thought we were going to die and never love again. Some folks actually spend their lives avoiding love after being hurt. But what if, the heart has to be broken for us to really understand love. When we exercise, especially weight training the muscle tissue has to be torn and healed and torn again to build up more muscle. What if our hearts have to be broken and healed and broken again to grow to the capacity of holding love in all that we do.
I am tired of spending so much of my energy on things that don’t matter. I want to live, eat, breathe, and give love. That is my heart’s desire and what I want to spend my energy on. In the end when we are ready to leave this world, I don’t want to say, “wow look how much money I made and how many things I have.” No, I want to say, “I loved with all my heart, and experienced God in all my relations.”
My friend in acupuncture school inspired me with her words to write a poem, which I am sharing with you all here:
Choose we risks
We choose to take.
And in the risks
we embrace the pain.
Birth and life and love
are seeded with the risk.
We choose to embrace
the risk in all of these.
The greater the risk:
the higher the reward,
the deeper the love,
the more intense the pain,
the less focused the trivialities.
Plant your seed
deep within my soul
and in your pain, my pain
one moment, eternal
And the risk
May love find you, embrace you, inspire you and bring you closer to the Divine within you. I give you my love.